GA Moore wrote: >My apologies to Koolmusic for my comments infering drug usage. Thank you. They are appreciated. >Some of the comments, which I found unfairly insulting to the US, And ... which particular comments of mine were those? >... seemed so far afield from reality in my view then maybe it's about time you tried amending your view of reality instead of always trying to get others to amend theirs. >that I wondered if mind altering substances were actually involved. ... well ... when someone does not exactly and always agree with you it's always a lot easier to insult them and attribute outrageous motives and attributes to them. Or ... was I supposed to take your earlier outburst as an example of rational debate? >However, it was rude to voice this And surely ... equally as rude even and ever to have had such thoughts. >and I should not have made comments which sounded derogatory and kept my >impressions to myself. The impressions are totally erroneous. I have never in my life taken any mind-bending drugs. And I never will. Even though it is clearly your opinion, and that of a couple of others, that I am in deep need of them. And ... as for 'comments which sounded derogatory', well if I really have made any such to you then I will similarly apologise. You obviously feel that there must have been some issued by me. You, for your part, did not have search very far to find remarks made to me that could have been considered derogatory to me. I, on the other hand, am searching extremely hard to find any of mine that were directed at you. > >Soldiers have marched up to my home and placed me > >under arrest. They imprisoned me and my sisters and my brother and my > >mother and my father. They were foreigners, too. I was also very interested > >in the make and model of their guns. That is my reality. > >I'm very sorry about that. I don't know where you live or what the >circumstances were. But I am sure this was quite terrible. Yes it is indeed a terrible thing. It happened to me and my family not once but twice. At intervals of just over 20 years apart. And both involving disputes over exactly who had won an election. This happened to us for doing nothing more than trying to establish a democracy. Do not even begin, kind Sir, to try and engage me in a debate about who exactly supplied those guns. On the first occasion my family and I were fortunate that my father got word and managed to flee the country even as they came to our house for otherwise those soldiers would have shot the lot of us out of hand. They came 45 minutes after he left and there were such prayers that day that he could sneak over the borders way far to the north. His only crime was to have been foolish enough to have been elected to the Opposition and to have done his job. On the second occasion it was my mother and my sisters they got. That second coup had been planned for a while but my father had again had to leave the country on short notice, which the coup planners had not anticipated. All their plans were in place, however, and they went ahead anyway. Me ... I was in a fine university built by the very people who supplied those guns and doing a degree course that involved learning about peace and brotherhood to man. Let us just say that my father died in very mysterious circumstances and leave it at that, OK? That he simply is dead I accepted long ago. It took a lot of work but I learned not to be bitter about it. He was a most excellent father and I do my best daily to be a credit to what he taught me. And ... what he taught me he in his turn learned from the ancestors. As for the perception of reality that I have and that you clearly find so disagreeable ... it is formed directly by the fact that I have smelled the blood of my fellows running in the streets. Not a nice thing. My perception of reality is formed by the fact that I heard bombs falling down all around me. I have had my back door shot in by soldiers with machine guns who then threatened to kill me if I would not immediately tell them what they wanted to know. They shot animals. They shot people. All around me. Arbitrarily. Not a nice thing. And that, kind Sir, is where MY vision of how to conduct one's self in life comes from. I have no idea how your perception of reality has been formed. But that's where I got mine. A while ago you told me that the wisest thing to do was to prepare for war. So ... I am assuming that you have now done your best to offer me your hand in sincere apology and hopefully in at least some semblance of friendship. What would you have me do now, then? Reject this and prepare for war? I must confess, though, that I AM finding a small matter of trust a very hard thing to deal with right now. Can't say that I feel like trusting you very much right now. Why should I? I have had you insulting me insulting my parentage insulting my heritage and accusing me of drug-taking ... and I have had Dennis Gunn telling me to shove a thorn bush up my backside. Is that the kind of thing you want me to remember of Americans? Or would you really rather prefer it if I was gracious enough to set such things aside and just move right along to a brave new tomorrow? I have read many of your emails. Clearly you love books and reading. It may come as a surprise to you, but so also do I. You are fortunate enough to live in a country where you can take books completely for granted. I come from a country where we cannot. To you, it is such a simple thing to go out and buy a book ... and not only buy a book, but know that what is between its covers is very likely to be truthful. (Setting the odd edition of The National Enquirer aside). I have not always had such a luxury. I do know, though, that people have sacrificed their lives so that books containing truth and useful information can exist. Not too long ago a book by Salman Rushdie was banned in many places. Why, exactly, do you think that was? (A rhetorical question). And last year, or maybe the year before, a British author was taken to court for writing a book about Hitler and Nazi Germany and the Holocaust full of denials and apologetics and the plain misinterpretation of 'historical facts'. But that book was released into an environment where people had a very healthy respect for the power and sanctity of books. He was taken to court. He lost his case. Where I come from ... you can't trust books. And THAT'S when you can find them. I was fortunate enough to be able to go to several Western (and non-Western) countries. And I have studied. I have read an awful lot of books. Probably as many as you have at least. We have probably even read many of the same books ... although, clearly, we have learned different things from them. Like me, Prince Alwaleed bin Talal was educated in some fine Western universities. Mine were in the UK, his in the US. And he read them and he studied them. And he was not afraid to look the people who had written those books straight in the eye and say: 'I disagree with you on this point'. Would you really have it otherwise? What is the point of an education if one day a student cannot look at a teacher and say ... 'I'm very sorry but I disagree with you on this point'. And ... as Mr. Giuliani did to the Prince, so have you done to me. 'I'm very sorry GA Moore but I disagree with you on this particular point'. You had better get used to such statements because there's an awful lot more people where I come from who are going to lift up their heads from their books and say exactly that to you. All I can hope is that you will accord to them far better treatment than you have seen fit to accord me. Yes Sir ... I have had soldiers shoot at my house and bombs fall out of the sky and seen human body parts flying and I have been mortally afraid for I have doubted that I would survive that day. It is not pleasant. Not at all. As you have said, it is a terrible thing. I would not wish it on anyone. I honestly and sincerely do not wish it on you either, kind Sir. And what I have learned is that the hand of friendship and understanding should always be offered. Clearly, you have learned a different lesson. Bombs falling out of the sky, though, is a daily reality for a few poor souls on this planet. And just look what has happened here in this forum. Just a few emails. That's all. Nobody marching upon your home. Nobody brandishing a bun at you. And look how you have felt it necessary to explode. Imagine what it is like for those who have to live with a lifetime of it. So ... you have now offered me an apology. Well ... excuse me while I be just a tad uncharitable and ponder it's sincerity for a while for this is certainly an email at considerable variance with those I have seen come in from you over the last few weeks. It is possible that you are most sincere. But it is my right to judge this for myself ... and most especially so given the way in which you have qualified it. It is entirely possible, after all, that you have only offered this apology because there is a whole email group looking on and you know perfectly well that what you said and the way you said it did not make you Look Good ... and you know perfectly well it was most absolutely not an example of your much vaunted 'rational reasoning'. Probably, that is the only reason you have offered it. You sent me a one line private email a couple of days ago, after all, after I had remonstrated with you over another matter ... and there was not a HINT of an apology in that earlier one. So ... I am rather inclined to believe that the fact that this is a public arena is what lies at the bottom of this present one. I am perfectly entitled, thank you, to my own vision of reality and to my own tortuous brands of rational reasoning. Probably, though, and in the end, I will come to accept its sincerity. However, I am still a bit close right now to the reality of what you said and the abuse you hurled at me. Give me a few days, however, and I am sure that your sincerity will come shining through. That's the kind of person I have tried to make myself to be. I must say, though, that I am a lot more impressed with a War On Poverty and a War With Books and a War With Food than I am with any War On Terrorism. Seems to me that -- at least if MY personal life-experience is anything to go by -- the latter three kinds of wars are a lot more productive of human cooperation and kindness than the last of that group. They also overthrow despotic and tyrannical regimes a lot more effectively. But then ... what do I know? I am just an ignorant and primitive soul who needs a few lessons on shaping up his vision of reality a bit and so that he can 'get real' and 'grow up'. And ... regarding a War With Books ... judging from the strong remarks you made earlier about the last US election and who won and who lost and who voted for whom, I am sure you will agree with me that there are a fair few citizens in the US citizens who would do well to read a few more books and have such a War directed at them. Thank you for your apology, though. I am working very hard on accepting it. As I said, it might take me a while but I'll get there. I do write a lot sometimes. It's just my way of dealing with reality. Nice thing about it is ... it doesn't leave trails of blood everywhere. And it doesn't make peoples rooves cave in. It just wears my fingers out. Kool Musick Keep Musick Kool _________________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? 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Re: [L-OT] Apology to kool
2001-10-13 by Kool Musick
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